2017 is going to be a year that I want to remember. A year that I rediscover and push myself to the limit. It's a tall order, but as the countdown begins to that day when I turn 50, I want to enjoy every moment. I am looking forward to this phase of my life and have a lot more confidence to hit that day hard with a beaming smile on my face saying 'I made it'!! Time to embrace life and be comfortable and confident enough to enjoy everything around me. There will be challenges, things that take me out of my comfort zone, times when I will not be my usual self while I rediscover who I am, how I used to be before becoming a mother, connecting with friends again who are so far away, and those who I am so so grateful who are a lot closer. So what would be my word? It's been so hard this year to think of something appropriate. New Year's Eve had me all of a tizz, words were spinning around in my head, enough to keep me awake well into the small hours, and then going onto the fen mid morning to listen to the rain pounding my car windows while I jotted down word after word after word.
T I M E, M E, S E L F I S H, R E D I S C O V E R,
C H A N G E, H A P P I N E S S
As I wrote words in my book, they had a common theme - ME. With my two teens fully independant it's MY turn to think about what is important to ME. Am I being selfish? Well, yes I suppose I am, and that's something that takes me out of my comfort zone, but as a couple of close friends said to me on New Years Day, it's about ****** time! You see, I look for the good in people and get let down (a lot), this is what I want to get away from. I want to be the person I once was and not be afraid to do that. Believe me, the last 24 hours have been quite an eyeopener and nerve wracking as my mind tackles 'the word'. So, what word have I settled on?...
I D E N T I T Y
This word encompasses all the others, rediscovering who I am, changing parts of my life that I no longer want to live, learn to be ME again , learn to be selfish in a self preserving way and enjoying any happiness that comes across my path, which I am hoping will be in abundance this year.
Have you discovered your word yet?